transformation...

  This month has been such a journey. So many changes in various areas. Along with the transition of seasons comes a shift in mood and for the first time in many years, I don't feel depression descent like so many black clouds. I feel something, yet it's much lighter than it was in the past/ I feel extremely grateful for that. Struggling with depression is my biggest challenge and I find that immersing myself in projects, people and interests other than what's going on in my head! really helps me to cope.
  I've devoted myself (on a schedule with goals even) in a realistic and productive way, to my writing. I am going to finish the vampire book in the next 6 months and I have a submission for a literary magazine due in a couple weeks. It feels so wonderful to have this written life taking form in my head (a lovely distraction). it (almost) makes up for the romance drought I'm currently experiencing.
  I am a hopeless romantic. I decided that I would try and stay away (oh so far away...) from any of those kinds of situations for a time and I am happy with that choice, it is, however, a bit of a new path for me. I feel the pull of longing to belong to some special couple. When I start to get a little mopey I just call up a friend or take myself on a little date. It works. And you know what, I've deepened friendships and made so many amazing friends over the last few months. It really is a gift.

  Now the day is full of rain and I have a few yard chores to finish before I spend the day thrifting and making a few treats for a feast tomorrow. My vintage mojo has been strong these days! I am opening a little vintage space in a vintage mall on December first and I want everything to be just right. Excited! xo m